last april i was in the middle of a number of thoughts that i was really wrestling with in regards to what does faith look like, taste like, feel like in this world we are living in. if you have known me for very long, you know that i am not a big fan of the word "Christian" and how it is perceived or defined by most people. i think people who call themselves "Christians" have a misconstrued definition and the people who do not call themselves "Christians" do not have a correct perspective either. i would even say that i probably as well have a wrong definition of the word, so back in april and the few months before that i was really attempting to think about new words or new ideas for what defines following Christ. i think that idea of the gospel and the later teachings from the new testament would direct us to a way of life that follows the ideals and values of Christ.
i have two boys and they are ... Kade who will 5 in March and Evan who turned 2 last november. i am scared to death of the type of faith that i am going to lead them toward and direct them toward and raise them up in. i am NOT too excited about raising them in the ideals and model of "Christianity" that i was raised in. not that is was bad, wrong, or that i don't appreciate all of the people who influenced my life for Christ and shaped me into the person i am today. but i think it was highly influenced by our western american culture and a modern worldview.
but since last april i have been side barred and have taken a long brain break from these thoughts and ideas, but like i said in my first posting i have begun to read again and that is a dnagerous thing for me... because when i read i think and than i can't sleep. ecsepcially if i have no one to brain dump on. so i am beginning to start this journey to figure out this issue for myself and my boys... and all of those that i luv and have been talking about the issue with for the last year or so, minus my brain break.
so i am very interested in hearing other peoples frustration with ... i guess you could say mainstream "Christianity" that is represented on the radio... in most bookstores (i hate the poperi) and that is shared from most pulpits. i know this version is not connecting to many of the people i interact with on a daily basis and the students that i have worked with in the community for so long. i do not want to throw it all under the bus or say it is bad, but i want to begin to ask questions like ... how "Biblical" is the religous right? why are people who are pro-life are for the death penalty? why are people who are for abortion are against the death penalty? is it possible to raise two boys in this country that will NOTgrow up to be greedy and not have the desire to love thier neighbor? ... will they even care who their neighbor is?
well that is all for today... peace